Most Amazing Brother Ever!

Jasper will be the most amazing big brother ever!  We are so excited to be sharing the news that I'm pregnant!I don't know if Jasper is more excited or scared...ha!  He probably should be a little scared because his world is going to be rocked!  But it is going to be rocked in a good way too...more love, a sibling and hopefully playmate and friend.This second time around is so completely different from the first, and I am still trying to wrap my brain and emotions around it all.  With Jasper, everything was easy, perfect, celebratory and exciting.Don't get me wrong, we are ecstatic to be adding a member to our family and so very thankful.  But at the same time, the path getting here was a little uneven with a few stumbles along the way.  It made me stronger, but also more worried.  I am always worried.  I am trying to let go of it, to put it God's hands, but I am still such a worrier.We've always wanted more kids, but while my mom was sick I couldn't even begin to think when that would happen.  The timing wouldn't have worked. After she died, we slowly began to know it was the right time for our family.  I knew going into it that it would be hard to be pregnant without my mom and best friend, but I had no idea.  Most things in life seem to be easier in the end than I make them out to be in my head, but not this one.  I am terrified to do this all without her, and saying that it is not the same without her is the biggest understatement of all time.I so badly want to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy and soak it up as much as I did with Jasper.  And so I am doing it the only way I know how right now, one day at a time.Monday we had our first ultrasound, and there is nothing better than seeing the tiny baby that is growing inside of you...pure bliss.  Everything looked completely healthy, and  I am so thankful.  I am 12 weeks and due January 25th!  I cannot wait to bring another beautiful baby into the world.  And I just cannot even imagine right now how my heart will grow when Jasper holds his sibling for the first time.  He already puts his face against my belly to talk to the baby, and my heart just melts.And yes, I bribed my child with M&M's to take these pictures.  :)