Dreaming

I woke up this morning with my head spinning.  It is the artist in me, and I have a love hate relationship with it.  It always happens to me about this time of year; wedding season finished up, Fall portrait sessions all wrapped up, and I begin to have the time to dream.  There are so many BIG projects that I want to take on, and dreams that I want to bring into reality, but yet there is always that fear.  The fear that if I put it all out there, spend my days and nights working towards a goal, and then it still fails.  The one thing that is pushing me though is that I know if I don't try, I will be so upset with myself in the end. Never trying would be much more devastating than simply failing.  I fail, big and small, every single day.  I think I can handle it.I am sick of making excuses for myself on why certain dreams will never happen.  Why do we let ourselves believe that it has anything to do with anyone other than ourselves?  My brother called last night with some great news, and I am so proud of him.  Afterwards I told my husband, Trevor, just how happy I am for where my brother is in his life right now.  He is at that moment where absolutely anything is possible.  And there is no doubt in his mind that all of his dreams can come true.  I remember feeling this way, but why do we let life get in the way of believing this every single day?  I want to wake up every morning believing that anything is possible.  I want Jasper to see that in his parents, and I don't want him to ever think his parents didn't dream for themselves every day of their life.  Why would any of us give up so soon?So today, I am again reviewing my dreams, BIG and small, crazy and crazier!  And, as much as it will be hard putting myself out there, I am going to blog all about them.  Then you can all keep me accountable too!  What are your dreams?  Are you crazy enough to join in with me?  Let me know your dreams and we can help each other along the way.  It is always better to have a workout partner encouraging you along the way.And because you need a picture (and going along with the theme), I am crazy enough to put one of me in my running tights and without make-up.  This is how I look behind the scenes at Jasper's mini photo sessions.  I usually don't have time to get him and myself ready, and last session I decided to document it. Yes, I always have the great pictures of him from the sessions, but much of the memory is the time spent creating those pictures. Sometimes we have a blast, sometimes it is a crying mess, but it is always an adventure.